(and yes, by "interesting," i mean "WTF?! they were fucking hard!!")
i thought the p.t. was hard, too. hard in that it seemed unusually straight-forward. i actually had a LOT of time left at the end of the session to review and revise what i wrote. . . . so i'm thinking i actually fucked up somewhere in there.
:-T
but it's over, it's over. hallelujah. :) when time was finally called at about ten minutes 'til 5 p.m., and half the test takers started cheering, i actually had no coherent thought in my mind. i couldn't think. today was just a haze. . . .
this morning, i got stuck in traffic for an hour, trying to get downtown. usually it only takes me 30 minutes. and i majorly thought i was going to be late to the exam. i was freaking. and then i parked about 8 blocks away, and it took me another 10 minutes to power walk the distance from the parking structure to the testing site. my calves are sore at the moment . . . .
but luckily i wasn't late at all. i got there with a few minutes to spare.
it's hard to say how i did. . . .
i have admitted to not studying as much nor as hard as i should've. but the thing is i remember stuff. for each of the questions that were presented, i could look at the facts and know exactly how the analysis should proceed.
the difference between this bar exam and last february's bar exam is that this time around, i didn't have set definitions that i memorized verbatim. for last february, i got a book that provided structured paragraphs for almost all possible issues that could arise in a question for a given subject. i memorized at least 80-85% of those for february.
this time, i kinda glanced through those definitions. but the answers i put together were not answers based on that rote memorization. they were my own.
and that can be either a good thing or a bad thing.
:-T
i'm banking on it being a bad thing. but a tiny part of me hopes not. a tiny part of me remembers one of my bar review lecturers (yeah, the one that said we all deserved to fail) saying that the key to writing great essays is not by mechanically spewing out definitions. anyone can memorize definitions, he said, "you just have to make it yours."
so did i do what he said we should do?
damned if i know. :-D guess we'll see in four months.
:-P
oh, but what was i saying? oh, yeah. after time was called today and the exam was totallly and completely over, and everyone started cheering, i had no ability to form any words in my head.
and then maybe ten minutes later (we were still seated and the proctors were still collecting stuff), a coherent word finally wafted into my mind:
". . . shit . . . "
just like that. it wafted into my mind breathily, softly.
done.
and i kinda felt like i wanted to cry.
so many tears spent on this thing. i didn't even study much for this one, but i am still spent. if there is anything i have exerted an undue amount of time, thought, energy, blood, sweat, and tears on forever now, it is this one exam.
and then i thought instantly of what i wanted to do, now that i could get my life back to normal and start enjoying the remainder of the summer. it is the very first thing i found i really wanted to do:
go sun my legs.
oh, and run, too.
:)
best of luck to everyone else! the waiting game now begins anew . . . .
anyway, i just had three cocktails tonight, so i am buzzed as well as ultra tired at the moment. and i have work tomorrow . . . . :-P
so g'night, ya'll. sleep tight. and may you dream contented dreams. ;)
5 comments:
Congrats, girl!!!!!!
Have a great weekend and great run!
You certainly deserve it!
You're a better woman than I. I didn't even go to the exam...
Hopefully, this will be the last of the bar exam for you- because you pass and not because you just decide not to take it again, I mean.
Congrats on just getting through this bullshit arbitrary hazing ritual for a marathon three times... now go drink. then sleep.
Congrats on finishing the exam. I'm a repeater as well. I didn't study this time around as much either. And I'm hoping that will benefit me. In Feb. the essay I did the best in was in the area of law I knew least about. I think it required me to analyze the facts more. And that's what they're looking for. So many people on the blogs are talking about how they did or didn't get the "right" result for who got the Condo - Hal or Sis? Or what share of the house between Ed or Betty was correct. It doesn't matter. It's how you analyzed. That Conlaw question a total surprise for everyone so that should be good. Good luck in November. I hope we all passed.
thanks, weezy and wclm! hugs to you both! this weekend was one to forget, most def. but i must say the cocktails sure went down well. ;)
it was seriously hard, tho', wclm. the exam, i mean. i was NOT prepared. there were, if i remember (and took the test) correctly, two contracts questions! and i totally flobbed the p.r. question. . . . but hey, that's what the drinking after the bar exam is for, huh?
hey, j! thanks for your comment. i DO hope you're right! i didn't study very much -- and so what i relied upon, in the end, was basic analytical skills. where i knew what concept applied but didn't remember the EXACT rule, i wrote out something that SOUNDED like it could've been the rule. :-T LOL hope it was enough!! best of luck to you -- i hope we all passed, too!
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