trying to get back on the horse

it’s on.

a first date tonight.

i don’t know exactly what i feel. not dread. but not excitement, either.

it seems official, doesn’t it? i am going to die an old maid, cold and alone.

but it won’t be for lack of ability to get dates.

it will be for lack of enthusiasm for such said dates.

but . . . i should give her a chance. she is funny. and nice. and who knows, it might be a good time. i must say that it does feel rather nice to be pursued for once.

:-T

we aren’t doing anything too crazy tonight, this being a work-night for me -- and also a week before the damned bar exam (i sure have been doing a lot of last-minute cramming lately . . . . O_O). but i’m sure we’ll have plenty of good, smart conversation; she’s been to grad school and law school (and dropped out of both), and i do like people who can hold their own, and then some, when it comes to discussing anything. i think what i need to do is just let go and ride the tide and see what happens. right?

but i can't help my lack of enthusiasm. i'm not attracted to her. and i just . . . kinda wish she were someone else.

:-T

but it'll be fun. really. it will. fun, fun, fun. nothing but fun. gads of fun.

fun.

. . . .

*sigh* okay, whatever. just wish me luck tonight. first-date details to be provided (of course) on the morrow.

/:-|

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update as of 3:45 p.m.

okay, so now i'm nervous. what the hell am i going to wear??

O_O