almost a week

i had the upper hand.

i was angry. and i was in the right. and i could walk away and let it go. and i could go without having any desire to talk to her or recant or apologize or otherwise suck up to make the conflict go away.

i succeeded for almost a week.

but now she is participating in giving me the cold shoulder, too.

and that's not right.

i should be the one who has the right to remain angry and/or distant.

where does she get the right?

but it's working. now that she's playing the cold shoulder game, too, my resolve has gotten shaky once again. and i'm wondering if it is worth it to hang on to my position and let this impasse continue, all for the sake of being angry and in the right. a part of me is still afraid of the consequences -- such as her not talking to me again, her leaving me, etc.

damn it.

must.

hold.

true.