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i've become an amoeba.

ooey and gooey all over.

everywhere, what little muscle i had before has softened and become cushion-like.

my pee smells like penicillin.

i'd signed up for a race that was to take place today.

obviously, didn't go through with it.

i went for a drive today and came back within an hour.

just that one little excursion plumb tuckered me out.

i have so much to do, though. so much to do, so little time, so little energy, and so little . . . money.

i'm gonna go back to work on monday, though, and tackle the huge mounds of work that i know have been piling there. over a week's worth.

i did try to go to work. on wednesday, i went to work as usual. but i was only there for an hour and a half before i got a phone call from my doctor's office. i had tested postive for strep throat. i was not to go to work for 48 hours. "but i'm already at work," i protested. "does that mean i have to go home now?"

"yes" was the answer.

so then i went home.

some additional movies i've been able to watch during the week include matrix: revolutions, appaloosa, eagle eye (which is hella good! i'm now a die-hard shia laboef fan! what a hottie!), the incredible hulk (the edward norton version), lions for lambs, hulk vs. thor and hulk vs. wolverine, hellboy ii, and i just started hollywoodland. i've got another 12 dvds ready to be cued up when i'm done.

seriously, i haven't watched this many movies in one setting in a really, really, really long time. in fact, i haven't sat down to watch a dvd, period, in quite a while. i'm not a sit-down-and-watch-the-telly kind of person usually.

a couple of friends called me during this past week while i was in my hibernation mode. they called to check on me and see how i was doing. it was nice to hear from them.

the deadline for signing up for the july bar was april 1. i haven't signed up. i think i can still sign up before april 14 but with a late fee of $ 50.

my chief wants me to take the exam, and he said he's willing to make a lot of concessions for me to be able to study and work at the same time. i haven't quite committed to doing it again. a part of me is quite content with how things are right now, with work and other commitments.

but the grass is always greener, you know?

i've run into lots of people i knew in high school who also work for the st@te. they have a normal bachelor's degree, and it took them anywhere from 4 to 8 years to graduate from college. or they may not even have a college degree. but they are still working in the same job classification as me, making roughly the same salary.

and then i look at the senior staff counsel who's been working with my unit a lot lately. she gets a lot of props, and her words carry a lot of clout. she just knows her shit. by my estimation, she makes $ 6-7,000 a month.

it sure would be nice to be in her position, is what i'm thinking.

:-T