sick

D U D E .

i've been sick! it's been heinous.

i went home early last thursday because i wasn't feeling well and called in sick on friday. i called in sick on monday, yesterday, and also stayed home today because it's a state holiday.

i just feel so, so, so crappy.

i don't think i'm ready to go back to work tomorrow. but i must. i'll try to do at least half a day, then probably ask for the rest of the day off. i went to visit my doctor today to get a diagnosis and some meds. my doctor took a culture and said the lab will let me know by tomorrow if i've got strep throat or not. she also prescribed for me some meds that will help me get a good night's sleep without coughing. i'll test it out tonight and see if it works . . . .

going to the doctor's office today inspired me to brush my hair for the first time in five days. my voice has vacillated between disappearing completely or being sex predator-like raspy. i just polished off a whole two-liter bottle of canada dry ginger ale; it took me three days, but it's the only thing i can stand to drink; water doesn't help.

i watched a lot of movies the past few days, while lying on my side. it's all a haze. certainly not my most productive time ever, but it was the only thing i could do because i could not otherwise get up out of bed. so i recall watching syriana, the first two matrix movies, the most recent x-files movie i want to believe, iron man, gray matters, sin city, underworld and underworld: evolution. i think i watched a couple more movies than that. but like i said, the past few days have all been just a haze, so i don't remember what else. i didn't have a fever, but i was just, oh, so tired.

the worst of it is my throat. it hurts to do anything -- drink, eat, cough, even swallow my own spit. i've coughed it raw. but i can't help the coughing. and so it goes. the coughs are dry coughs. there isn't enough moisture in my throat to make the coughing easier. i keep drinking alka-seltzer, ginger ale, water, hot water with ginger -- but nothing really works. i just keep sucking at cough drops.

ah, look at me. i'm bitching and griping over my body's woes. seriously, it's been a trying past few days. i think i'm peaking, though. the worst of it is over, and it's all about getting better from here. unfortunately, i think i passed the virus on to my mom. i do hope it's not strep throat . . . . she told me today she was feeling tired and dizzy. "uh oh," i said. "that was me the first two days i felt sick."

ugh. poor mom.

so no, not ready to go back to work tomorrow. but gotta, if only for just a little while. there's a whole pile of work to do, i'm sure. over the weekend, i snuck into the office to get my cell phone charger. while there, i started up my work computer. couldn't help myself. but i just wanted to see if i'd missed anything important. turns out i had 47 new messages, the majority of which were requests for information, new work assignments, or new information for me to release.

aw shit.

and that was only after one day of not being in the office!

so now that i've been out of the office for yet another work day, i'm sure there will be even more bundles of joy waiting for me in my inbox.

luckily, my temporary boss, who has taken over the supervisory position over me while my real boss is on vacay, has been totally cool. she has been supportive about this time i've missed. it's good to have that support.

soo not ready to go to work tomorrow. . . . but i have to.