civil obedience

it is monday.

it's been five days since nymph and i had our little exchange.

dimples was off for the remainder of the week, after that exchange, last week. today, she said she was surprised nymph and i hadn't made up yet.

to tell the truth, i'm totally over it. no feelings either way.

okay, one feeling: i don't feel like putting out the necessary energy to "make up with" or otherwise talk to nymph.

i did need something from nymph today – paperwork for my boss. so when she went on break, i left a note on her chair. when she got back from break, she got the paperwork first thing, then brought it to me, saying cheerfully, "here you go!" i took it from her and thanked her shortly without looking at her.

later, we both were walking in the same aisle towards each other. "excuse me," she said. i nodded at her curtly.

in short, i am being a cold assed bitch to her today. but i don't really give a fuck. i've given her way too many chances and have continued being nice to her even when i felt like ripping her head off.

a part of me wishes that, when we had that little exchange last week and she said that thing to me, i had given in to the inclination to snarl at her, with a dirty, vicious glare on my face, "eat shit, you spoiled-assed cunt."

but i guess it's better not to have said anything contentious like that.

just for the sake of being civil and all.

:-T