the goal i set for myself in my last post has been completed.
why does it have to be so hard? in all reasonableness, it shouldn't be that hard. and really, my number two boss was so great and understanding and gracious about it.
but still.
every time i have to quit my job, which i have done three times in the past two years, even when leaving a bad situation, it is a hard thing to do.
i feel like i am disappointing them.
i'm big on confucist principles -- unfortunately.
hierarchy is everything, as well as maintaining reciprocal roles. not only does this mean that i enthusiastically adore dom/sub role-playing . . . .
;)
. . . but in day-to-day life, it just also means the world to me to have my higher-ups approve of what i do.
i actually don't know of anyone who takes confucist roles, ideals, and relationships as seriously as i do. i'm quite proper in this respect, i think. confucius saw inequality in all relationships and he determined that this inequality was inherent and natural. it was thus his opinion that relationships should naturally reflect this inequality. in his philosophy, there are four ideal relationships, and if i remember them correctly, they are as follows: parent-child, elder-younger, older brother-younger brother, and . . .
something else. . . . i forget. . . .
but anyhow, in a single relationship between two people, one is considered to be more entitled to respect than the other, and this could be because of age, experience, lineage, prestige, etc. in all my relationships, whether professional, personal, familial, or whatever, for some reason, i have always tended to hold myself out as being the lesser person in the relationship while holding the other in greater esteem than me. as a result, i often feel like i should be doing more to make the other person happy, as if it were in my power to create that happiness.
well, we all can do more to make everyone important to us happy, can't we?
and so that is why i feel like, in regards to my current bosses, i have not quite held up my end of the bargain and that, just as i am starting to fulfill my obligations to them, i have gone and left them in the lurch.
i shouldn't feel this way. after all, i'm only a temporary employee!! by the very nature of my job, it wasn't meant to be permanent! and number two did express sorry that i was leaving. "you have really done a great job with your position," she said, "everyone keeps telling me how fast and good you are."
why, thanks!
sure, it's a no-brainer job. but hey, words of praise and encouragement never hurt anyone. :)
and really, it only goes to show how great the people are over here. if i didn't have other plans or my particular background, i may consider staying on just based on the personalities of my bosses alone. they're nice peeps.
but 'tis done. my last day is friday, november 9th.
mission accomplished.
. . . but in day-to-day life, it just also means the world to me to have my higher-ups approve of what i do.
i actually don't know of anyone who takes confucist roles, ideals, and relationships as seriously as i do. i'm quite proper in this respect, i think. confucius saw inequality in all relationships and he determined that this inequality was inherent and natural. it was thus his opinion that relationships should naturally reflect this inequality. in his philosophy, there are four ideal relationships, and if i remember them correctly, they are as follows: parent-child, elder-younger, older brother-younger brother, and . . .
something else. . . . i forget. . . .
but anyhow, in a single relationship between two people, one is considered to be more entitled to respect than the other, and this could be because of age, experience, lineage, prestige, etc. in all my relationships, whether professional, personal, familial, or whatever, for some reason, i have always tended to hold myself out as being the lesser person in the relationship while holding the other in greater esteem than me. as a result, i often feel like i should be doing more to make the other person happy, as if it were in my power to create that happiness.
well, we all can do more to make everyone important to us happy, can't we?
and so that is why i feel like, in regards to my current bosses, i have not quite held up my end of the bargain and that, just as i am starting to fulfill my obligations to them, i have gone and left them in the lurch.
i shouldn't feel this way. after all, i'm only a temporary employee!! by the very nature of my job, it wasn't meant to be permanent! and number two did express sorry that i was leaving. "you have really done a great job with your position," she said, "everyone keeps telling me how fast and good you are."
why, thanks!
sure, it's a no-brainer job. but hey, words of praise and encouragement never hurt anyone. :)
and really, it only goes to show how great the people are over here. if i didn't have other plans or my particular background, i may consider staying on just based on the personalities of my bosses alone. they're nice peeps.
but 'tis done. my last day is friday, november 9th.
mission accomplished.
here's to me whippin' myself into action --
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GOOD for you!!! Here's to new opportunities! =)
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