keeping busy

i can't seem to get to sleep before midnight anymore -- regardless of whether it's a work-day the next day or not.

i have not been at peace with myself for the longest time. i crave that peace right now. . . . but things haven't settled down yet. i know things are far from okay at the moment. so i know i have to be patient for when the time comes.

so many things going on. i am grateful to have so many things on my plate to provide distraction. and yet i am never fully distracted enough. . . . it's asking for trouble, to have so many things up in the air. but i need the variety and to be kept busy so that my mind doesn't revert back to certain things. i so dearly need it. . . .

the weather has been wet and rainy these past couple of weeks. i don't want to have to get used to this weather, but the storms are just never-ending. . . .

to bed. demanding day is expected at work tomorrow. gotta rest up for it.